Tuesday, June 23, 2009

The Yearn For Fullness

I have been Hungry for the past few days. I am not sure what the deal is-It is almost like my body has finally woken up to the fact that I am losing weight and is fighting back (as it did every other time I dieted). I have a huge compelling desire to take big bites, and eat a big portion of food. I have tried-believe me-but of course my band still holds me to the 1/2 cup rule and I cannot eat anymore without paying the piper with a bit of sliming or full on PB (don't worry I am stopping most of the time).

I am currently up 3 pounds. This has happened before. I hit an all time low and then it bounced back up wiggling around and then drops back down to the low weight again (or lower).

Today I have made a concerted effort to up my protein level. I finally found a protein powder I can stand (vanilla whey). I also bought some frozen mixed fruit and for breakfast had a fruit smoothie-1/2 cup frozen fruit, one scoop of protein power (20 grams protein), 1 cup of milk and 1/2 a banana. I was hoping it would fill my hungry void with its volume and help me stay satisfied longer with the protein. So far it has not really done that and I am concerned at the increased calories I am ingesting in the process.

Everything says I need a fill except the actual eating volume thing. I am going to give it another week and see how things go. If I am still having this problem I will make and appointment and go in for a tiny fill.

Todays food:

Fruit smoothie-recipe above (it ended-up quite large-2 cups or so)
1/2 grilled cheese sandwich
1 cup fruit smoothie (with full scoop protein. I made one for my daughter and added protein to what was left)
3 oz halibut filet
1 bite mashed potatoes
1 cup milk
2/3 c honey bunches of oats
1 oz chocolate (husband shared)

grand total calories-1350. It is amazing I managed to make it that high when I feel so deprived.


Lonicera said...

The weight yo-yoing is SO annoying, isn't it? After my last fill I was so restricted that there was little I could keep down, and my weight zoomed down. A few days later up it went again, and now another week later I still can't get back to that lowest level. I'm assuming it's to do with losing a lot of fluid due to PBs, and then replenishing it with water over the next few days. Goodness knows.
I wonder if your smoothing not helping you feel full is because they're just that - too smooth. They slide down too easily...
I also hate this going hungry but no choice thing. It's the band giving us aversion therapy, isn't it?

Lonicera said...

Clicked too soon - second para should read 'smoothies'... sorry.

Tina said...

I think you are right-the smooth smoothie-slipped right though. I do think I am feeling much more energetic today than I did yesterday-might be just normal up and downs of life but it also might be the protein boost. Regardless I am going to skip the morning smoothy but exchange it for a night time snack-tastes good, low call ice cream and protein boost.