Friday, October 31, 2008

Sweet Spot

Well i have said this before but this fill seems to be great! For the first time ever I can count the number of pieces of halloween candy i have ingested. I know exactly how much food I ate today because there was so little of it. I have already lost a pound since Tuesday. Yipppeeeeee

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Fill Day

So I have a fill this morning. I will come back and let you know how it goes. I hope I dont get too much and I hope this guy knows what he is doing!!

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Ok I am home and I think my restriction is not as good

So day two after my trip to NY and I ate like a pig again. I am full now but I ate sooo much at dinner. I dont know what the deal is??? I don't get it. I am kind of afraid to get a fill but then I am kind of afraid not to get one. Eek...

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Still running on the same fill and losing! OMG I'm surprised.

So The fill appointment i went on and on about in my last post never happened. I checked my appointment on the online system they have and it was not scheduled as I had been told on the phone. Instead it was scheduled for the week I was gone in New York (last week). So I had to change the darn thing yet again. Now here is the really weird part. I have great restriction now. I left for New York and during the whole time I was there I could eat 3 small meals and I was totally good. They give you wayyyyyy too much food in that town. At every meal I had to throw at least 1/2 away. At one place i threw almost 3/4 of my meal away. It drove me crazy for all of the wastefullness but it was awesome that I got full so fast! For breakfast I could only eat about 1/3 of a bagel with cream cheese. I had quite a bit of trouble keeping enough water in but that was my only problem.

I was a bit more hungry to day (I am home now) but after I ate a real dinner (instead of the snack-y kind of crap I normally eat I feel full. It really hits home that maybe i do have full restriction and I need to just change what I eat (i know DUHHHHH). So i am going to spend this week really trying to eat 3 solid meals a day and lots of water in between. I am also going to take my vitamins daily.

I might even cancel my doctors appointment. OH and the best part...I got home and weighed myself this morning. I lost 2.2 pounds while I was in New York. This is the day after I got home and I had really puffy ankles still. Yipppeeeeee I hope things are finally starting to move...

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Tomorrow is another fill-keep fingers crossed...

Tomorrow I will get my third fill. Of course today I'm feeling restriction. Yesterday I had nothing!! wide open. I ate like a pig all day. now today i had a sausage and egg for breakfast, a protein bar for lunch, some cottage cheese and another protein bar before dinner got done at 7pm. My daughter made lasagna. I had a 2x2 inch square and I am now stuffed.

I think this meal will last until bedtime because i can barely keep my eyes open and will go to bed soon.

Ill let you know tomorrow how it goes. My husband is going to go with me this time.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Weird Restriction and Ikearama

OK so I went to work on wednesday and wasn't really hungry most of the day. I had some breakfast, lunch and dinner but did not eat nearly what i once would have. I ate two meals off of the leftovers over the next two days. Thursday and Friday were similar but I had some snack attacks that were probably not wise. Today....I turned down a trip to McDonalds (I know he and I are supposed to be on the break up trail) My husband wanted some late lunch after a trip to the dump. I wasn't hungry (I was so not hungry that i was willing to pass up anything on the menu!!!! ) This is a major milestone that I hope continues for me.

Now you might ask...why the dump? Well we are tearing out our old kitchen for a bit of Ikea renewal. We are attempting to take it on in halves. One half of the kitchen had a pantry, upper and lower cabinets with a large table height counter that has never worked for us. The really large counter was used as a dumping ground of papers, mail, keys, toys, you name it everything ended up there. The pantry was very useful but the space left by both of these cabinets is huge. We are going to move the ceiling up (for some reason the builders of the house made a false ceiling very low (I guess they were thinking cosy?). I found an antique welsh dresser to house my dishes and then i figure i can move the canned goods that once lived in the pantry can now go where the dishes are living. The rest of the kitchen will be done up country kitchen-eske using one of the white cabinets they have and at Ikea and a big farm sink.

Monday, October 6, 2008

ARghhhhhhhhh up two pounds

Im tired and this fill sucks. I hope hope hope the next one provides me with something resembling restriction. I almost had it. It was sooo close i could taste it two weeks after my surgery but obviously swelling was playing a good role in the restriction.

I think this is hell and i am in it!!

ON a wee positive note. Im finally feeling less tired. I managed to stay up until 3 getting a load of work done. Since surgery (geez it has been about a month and a half) I have been unable to stay up past 10 or 10:30 and still could take a nap during the day. I can still nap (but I always can nap!) but I am so happy to get my late night alone time back.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Well that fill was a bust-

On day two I had a little restriction. I was not really hungry all day. After that It has been a free for all. I dont have much restriction. The only reason I would say I have any at all is that bread, cake etc. sticks if I am not careful but not even that is bad.

I have as far as I can see gained 2 pounds. I am starting to get unhappy. I will be lucky to have lost anything by the time I go to New York in a few weeks. I had high hopes that I could be in the clothes from my last big weight loss that hang in my closet. That is just not going to happen.