Thursday, June 11, 2009
Finally Pictures and an Epiphany
Ok-Posting these pictures freaks me out. I have never been a big picture girl and these are horrible looking (both before and after). I can see the weight loss on the front view and side view but I swear my backside looks bigger on the second picture but I think it is a cropping problem because my butt is disappearing! I swear all of my jeans have saggy butt!
There is something about actually looking at a picture as horrible as these are to make you wonder what the heck I was thinking (or not as the case may be) when I got this fat in the first place!! I look like hell and still look like hell and obviously when I looked in the mirror as I walked out the door everyday I avoided paying attention to the hideousness of my body.
Chewing and Stopping-
I have discovered that I can eat bread, muffins, salad, vegetables, and lunch meat. These are all foods that in the recent past I had given up. What I have discovered over the past few days-and this is so underwhelming and I should have figured it out about 6 months ago but apparently I am a super slow learner is that if I chew and I stop at the first indication that something has hit bottom in my stomach Than I can eat with no problems.
If I chew the crap out of the offending items they do not get stuck (duhhh). Now i don't mean token chewing or even really chewing-no I mean chew the food until it is a semi-liquid in your mouth. I have finally learned to take a bit, put the food down and chew chew chew chew chew chew chew until there is absolutely nothing left of the food stuff.
I cannot eat 1 cup of food. I can eat 1/2 to 3/4 a cup of food. I cannot eat 1/2 a sandwich. I can eat 1/2 a sandwich minus a good crust edge. If I listen to my stomach it tells me but it is a very subtle message-more like a whisper than a shout. I can feel my fist bite touch my band. When I feel that food touch my band it is time to stop. My guess is there are a few more bites that have gone in but when my stomach says to me that it feels something-it means I am done. When I do not listen and eat 2 more bites or 3 more bites and I wait to feel the food in the back of my throat---well guess what. I am going to barf up part of my dinner because I did not leave room for spit and the digestion process needed to fit down there while waiting for my food moves through the stoma (about 1/2 and hour).
Posted by Tina at 6:22 PM