For some unknown reason my restriction left the building and I have had a very hungry few days and have felt compelled to belly flop into one unhealthy snack after another.
On Sunday Grace and I packed up our bikes and took off to my mom's for a quick weekend before I am landlocked at home again. My work schedule for fall term is on Tuesday's, Thursday's and Saturday's---thus no family weekends or days to take off to visit my parents. This trip culminated my headlong pitch away from exercise and back into food. I do not know what is going on but I have been starving hungry and craving dessert things like a heat seeking missile. While at my moms I got on her scale and thought to myself--well her scale is wrong (way too heavy)...um not ...I got home and it read one pound heavier. I have put on 7 pounds in a week!
Please cross all of your fingers and toes..knock on all things wooden that this is a water thing and not actual fat--even though I have a small spare tire that has appeared back on my waist as of this morning.
I vow to go back on the straight and arrow immediately by getting on my bike daily and focusing on eating when and what I am supposed to. I will also change my two year appointment (haven't done it yet) to another day and perhaps get that little pinch of a fill.
Living with a lapband after seeing goal is just as much work as getting there. This blog chronicles my journey to qualify for band surgery, my work to goal weight and now living with the band long term. Weight will always be an issue but there is a whole lot of living to be done.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Saturday, August 21, 2010
A Bit of a Fun Station Break
So the weightloss has stopped...right before hitting the 170 that I crave but as an entertaining diversion I had a great day at work (meeting with all kinds of fun workshop planning which I love). I gave the term final exam to my math class. Made two year bandiversary appointments for next Thursday at my surgeons office (a bit of a moan about that in a bit). Put the August paper to bed that I write for (volunteer) and finally...attended a coolarific neighborhood luau.
Work-I have finally signed a contract and now on the payroll at our local (and only a 15 minute drive away) university. It is a part time gig planning, collecting data for and doing some research on a grant project the department has gotten. Another part of the job is to assist in program planning and act as an adviser for graduate students. I love good collaboration and we had a program planning meeting on Tuesday that was really inspiring and fun to participate in.
My other job this summer has been to teach a half online half Saturday pre-calculus class at my local community college. Today was the final (Yippeee)..I managed to get all of the papers graded and grades calculated this afternoon and just need ot upload them tomorrow. Next term I am slotted to teach the course again and teach mathematics for elementary school teachers (I love this class so am looking forward to it).
The Doctors Appointment-On Thursday I attempted to make my two year anniversary appointment but failed to penetrate the receptionist force fields of the front desk. Instead of an appointment with my surgeon I got a fill appointment with a nurse practitioner. Instead of pre-arranging another deposit of data for the research study that I thought I was a part of...I got a n0 reply to my phone message and a survey in the mail asking me how my participation and information given by those conducting the study have been. I am not giving them high reviews. I am soo irritated and worked up now that I am going to call on Monday and cancel the appointment and demand to see my proper doctor and not some pass off last minute pinch hitter of a medical person.
The Newspaper-A few months ago I volunteered to write for our neighborhood newspaper. I really don't know what I was thinking as I barely got anything written for my old job but for some reason a good bit of journalism has caused my literary juices to flow and I have cranked out an article on the local July 4th festivities, three articles on the homeowners association arguments and goings on. and one on our neighborhood yearly night-out barbecues. It has been kind of fun to run around the neighborhood meeting people who I have lived near for 10 years and not really talked to before. I get to take pictures for my stories and collaborate with the other volunteer newspaper crew in planning stories, editing etc. Again another fun collaboration. We put our August issue to bed last night and will begin the September issue in a few days.
The Luau-For ten years the neighborhood I live in has offered a variety of fun activities of which I could have taken part...I didn't really. Grace did swim team and I sat and watched last year. For 10 years I showed up at the 4th of July firework show, watched the parade and even judged the floats a time or two but this year I have taken a much more active role in things. I walked the parade with the swim team, spend two hours serving up snow cones at the recreation center festivities, attended a jazz concert and spent many a warm day sitting poolside with my knitting while Grace swam. Tonight they held a luau. For 10 dollars we showed up at the recreation center for pulled pork, sweet and sour meatballs, macaroni salad, cole slaw, fruit preceded by wine (we carried our own) and were entertained by a full troop of Hawaiian dancers and even a fire dancer.
Finally for those of you who have waited with baited breath for someone to notice the weightloss...I had two people say it looked like i had lost weight. Uh..yeah duh just a little :) it is funny but still nice anyway.
Work-I have finally signed a contract and now on the payroll at our local (and only a 15 minute drive away) university. It is a part time gig planning, collecting data for and doing some research on a grant project the department has gotten. Another part of the job is to assist in program planning and act as an adviser for graduate students. I love good collaboration and we had a program planning meeting on Tuesday that was really inspiring and fun to participate in.
My other job this summer has been to teach a half online half Saturday pre-calculus class at my local community college. Today was the final (Yippeee)..I managed to get all of the papers graded and grades calculated this afternoon and just need ot upload them tomorrow. Next term I am slotted to teach the course again and teach mathematics for elementary school teachers (I love this class so am looking forward to it).
The Doctors Appointment-On Thursday I attempted to make my two year anniversary appointment but failed to penetrate the receptionist force fields of the front desk. Instead of an appointment with my surgeon I got a fill appointment with a nurse practitioner. Instead of pre-arranging another deposit of data for the research study that I thought I was a part of...I got a n0 reply to my phone message and a survey in the mail asking me how my participation and information given by those conducting the study have been. I am not giving them high reviews. I am soo irritated and worked up now that I am going to call on Monday and cancel the appointment and demand to see my proper doctor and not some pass off last minute pinch hitter of a medical person.
The Newspaper-A few months ago I volunteered to write for our neighborhood newspaper. I really don't know what I was thinking as I barely got anything written for my old job but for some reason a good bit of journalism has caused my literary juices to flow and I have cranked out an article on the local July 4th festivities, three articles on the homeowners association arguments and goings on. and one on our neighborhood yearly night-out barbecues. It has been kind of fun to run around the neighborhood meeting people who I have lived near for 10 years and not really talked to before. I get to take pictures for my stories and collaborate with the other volunteer newspaper crew in planning stories, editing etc. Again another fun collaboration. We put our August issue to bed last night and will begin the September issue in a few days.
The Luau-For ten years the neighborhood I live in has offered a variety of fun activities of which I could have taken part...I didn't really. Grace did swim team and I sat and watched last year. For 10 years I showed up at the 4th of July firework show, watched the parade and even judged the floats a time or two but this year I have taken a much more active role in things. I walked the parade with the swim team, spend two hours serving up snow cones at the recreation center festivities, attended a jazz concert and spent many a warm day sitting poolside with my knitting while Grace swam. Tonight they held a luau. For 10 dollars we showed up at the recreation center for pulled pork, sweet and sour meatballs, macaroni salad, cole slaw, fruit preceded by wine (we carried our own) and were entertained by a full troop of Hawaiian dancers and even a fire dancer.
Finally for those of you who have waited with baited breath for someone to notice the weightloss...I had two people say it looked like i had lost weight. Uh..yeah duh just a little :) it is funny but still nice anyway.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Dancing In the Streets :) ...wahoooo
Ok this volatile weightloss roller coaster thing is crazy but pretty much in a good way. The weight rebound on yesterday has come off again (in 24 hours flat) and I am now down to an all time low of 171.
I should have had a clue that something was up when I had a starving day yesterday--one long grazing session that ended in a chocolate fest while I played bunco. I think I ingested enough minty m & m's to caffeinate a small island nation. This morning the weight fairy visited and the scale showed 171 wahooooo...Only one pound away from what I weighed in high school....I need to go dig out my high school pictures now I think.
The weird thing is that I am now one size smaller than I was in high school. I wore a size 14 (and sometimes 16)...a few years ago they shifted the size scale one size but now I am wearing size 10/12. I am assuming I have less muscle mass? all the saggy skin is south of where my clothes fit? :)...or they really shifted the sized down by two to make us all feel better than reality?
Tina
I should have had a clue that something was up when I had a starving day yesterday--one long grazing session that ended in a chocolate fest while I played bunco. I think I ingested enough minty m & m's to caffeinate a small island nation. This morning the weight fairy visited and the scale showed 171 wahooooo...Only one pound away from what I weighed in high school....I need to go dig out my high school pictures now I think.
The weird thing is that I am now one size smaller than I was in high school. I wore a size 14 (and sometimes 16)...a few years ago they shifted the size scale one size but now I am wearing size 10/12. I am assuming I have less muscle mass? all the saggy skin is south of where my clothes fit? :)...or they really shifted the sized down by two to make us all feel better than reality?
Tina
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Hot Hot Hot...Again
We are having a heat wave here at the moment. Saturday-today has had temperatures in the high 90's and 100's. The weather is not nearly as bothersome as it used to be but I am still experiencing a little heat related puffy water retention. I can really feel it in my left ankle. It is funny really because of all of the things that I thought the weight gain would solve for me it was my left leg edema. Don't get me wrong the problem has improved drastically but I still get a bit of swelling and bruising on my left ankle when I travel and like now when the temperatures soar along with the humidity.
Yesterday I bounced back up two pounds to 174 but today I wore my size 10 capri pants. I am doing my best to control the little negative voice in my head that says...ohh you didn't really lose those extra two pounds they are back....and fight back with my other more positive self that says....yes, yest I did lose those two pounds and this is just heat related water weight gain.
I think I have figured out my dizzy problem--caffeine. The week after I got back from Sunriver and had my tremendous weight loss drop I drastically reduced the amount of caffeine I was drinking. The drop in my weight I suspect was due to the huge increase in exercise during our week of vacation. I am going to ramp up the exercise next week again and see if I can get another big drop in two weeks. Stay tuned for the experimental results.
Yesterday I bounced back up two pounds to 174 but today I wore my size 10 capri pants. I am doing my best to control the little negative voice in my head that says...ohh you didn't really lose those extra two pounds they are back....and fight back with my other more positive self that says....yes, yest I did lose those two pounds and this is just heat related water weight gain.
I think I have figured out my dizzy problem--caffeine. The week after I got back from Sunriver and had my tremendous weight loss drop I drastically reduced the amount of caffeine I was drinking. The drop in my weight I suspect was due to the huge increase in exercise during our week of vacation. I am going to ramp up the exercise next week again and see if I can get another big drop in two weeks. Stay tuned for the experimental results.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Another Day Another Pound
I am at a weird but somewhat cool band tightness spot right now. I do think eventually I will need to go in for a little unfill but right now I feel like I am in a perfect zen location. The weight is coming off quickly. I am not eating a lot but am getting in the right things at each meal. I am not getting stuck or even over eating. I feel satisfied quickly but am not feeling any urge whatsoever to snack or eat just one more bite beyond satisfied. The remaining 8 pounds to goal is so close I can taste it.
I do not know if this place is actually a physical one and all due to the band or if it is sort of a perfect band/mental space that I have stumbled upon. I will continue to ponder on it and let you know if I come up with an answer :)
todays food: Breakfast: one grande skim peppermint mocha frappacino.
Lunch: 3/4 cup of broccoli cheese soup. Two bites of a pickle.
Dinner:1 glass of white wine, 1 two inch round of dry sour dough bread, 3 oz of crab/cheese/risotto croquettes and about an oz of wild salmon.
nightime: Tonight I had my vitamin D in 1 cup of orange juice.
To top it all off we spent most of today shopping. I did a clothing try on at Target and actually purchased a pair of size 10 capris and two size medium dresses!!!! Overall a totally satisfying day.
On a final note-Nichole let me have a picture that was taken two years ago when I flew up with Grace to Alaska right after my grandson was born (May 2008). We went to this totally Alaska roadside bar and grill for lunch and the owners took our picture. Here is that picture---I probably weighed 298 and was attempting to use Grace as a shield (she was obviously too small to do the job). Funnily enough Grace and Grant are the only two people in the picture who have gotten bigger. Nichole has lost about 40 pounds since then and he boyfriend, Dave, has lost about 20. together we have lost almost 190 pounds. Cinda (daughter number 3) had in her hidden possession a contraband picture of me in a swimsuit before the band....I am saving that one for when I hit goal. I will do a before and after swimsuit photo (prepare to see the melted candle look!!)
I do not know if this place is actually a physical one and all due to the band or if it is sort of a perfect band/mental space that I have stumbled upon. I will continue to ponder on it and let you know if I come up with an answer :)
todays food: Breakfast: one grande skim peppermint mocha frappacino.
Lunch: 3/4 cup of broccoli cheese soup. Two bites of a pickle.
Dinner:1 glass of white wine, 1 two inch round of dry sour dough bread, 3 oz of crab/cheese/risotto croquettes and about an oz of wild salmon.
nightime: Tonight I had my vitamin D in 1 cup of orange juice.
To top it all off we spent most of today shopping. I did a clothing try on at Target and actually purchased a pair of size 10 capris and two size medium dresses!!!! Overall a totally satisfying day.
On a final note-Nichole let me have a picture that was taken two years ago when I flew up with Grace to Alaska right after my grandson was born (May 2008). We went to this totally Alaska roadside bar and grill for lunch and the owners took our picture. Here is that picture---I probably weighed 298 and was attempting to use Grace as a shield (she was obviously too small to do the job). Funnily enough Grace and Grant are the only two people in the picture who have gotten bigger. Nichole has lost about 40 pounds since then and he boyfriend, Dave, has lost about 20. together we have lost almost 190 pounds. Cinda (daughter number 3) had in her hidden possession a contraband picture of me in a swimsuit before the band....I am saving that one for when I hit goal. I will do a before and after swimsuit photo (prepare to see the melted candle look!!)
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Random Worrying Thought-
We had people for dinner tonight. With the heat and stress of getting ready my band seemed to slam shut. I had a difficult time drinking the peppermint iced tea I concocted (nope..No vodka for me tonight this one was alcohol free). I actually had a dinner party where I did not eat any dinner. It was odd and it didn't bother me at all (the not eating part) but it is freaking me out a little bit.
While at my doctors office last week the doctor mentioned that she had heard of some WLS patients who end up head long in either bulimia or anorexia because they get so worried about gaining their weight back. I would never let the weight come back. This life at this weight is so freaking awesome that I never ever want to be the out of shape person I once was.
so the freaking out part is...I didn't want to eat because I wanted to avoid having an embarrassing stuck episode in front of every one. I did not eat because i wasn't hungry. I did not eat because I could tell I was totally tight. but then...this is really the first time that I totally skipped a meal because of it. It was somehow easier to just skip the food and drink my iced tea than it was to deal with the food. I hope that because i recognize this...that I wont fall into some sort of a social eating food avoidance thing.
Just so you know--I am one of those people that when I have one of those really big zits start bubbling under the surface I do an internet search and end up spending 2 days worrying that it is some form of rare cancer...it runs in my family :)..over active illness imagination I mean..not the cancer. :)
While at my doctors office last week the doctor mentioned that she had heard of some WLS patients who end up head long in either bulimia or anorexia because they get so worried about gaining their weight back. I would never let the weight come back. This life at this weight is so freaking awesome that I never ever want to be the out of shape person I once was.
so the freaking out part is...I didn't want to eat because I wanted to avoid having an embarrassing stuck episode in front of every one. I did not eat because i wasn't hungry. I did not eat because I could tell I was totally tight. but then...this is really the first time that I totally skipped a meal because of it. It was somehow easier to just skip the food and drink my iced tea than it was to deal with the food. I hope that because i recognize this...that I wont fall into some sort of a social eating food avoidance thing.
Just so you know--I am one of those people that when I have one of those really big zits start bubbling under the surface I do an internet search and end up spending 2 days worrying that it is some form of rare cancer...it runs in my family :)..over active illness imagination I mean..not the cancer. :)
holy cow....another pound down and Vitamin D?
I lost yet another flipping pound today. I do not think I have lost this quickly since the first week I was banded and on liquids. Obviously some fat God somewhere has seen fit to release me from the plateau I was apparently on after hitting the 180's. Whatever the reason I am one happy camper right now.
We took another trip to Costco yesterday and I found yet another gem item. At our annual physical exams David and I were both told that our vitamin D levels were low. Apparently everyone who lives in the northwest U.S. suffers from it. I would imagine most people in sun deprived areas have trouble with D. I know that mine has been low for years. I am not a good vitamin taker (thankfully my other nutritional data is fine) but since David is not in tip top physical condition (I will inform you more about that when he finishes his battery of tests) I got us both a bottle of liquid D. The doctor told us to take 3000 units a day so all we have to do with this stuff is take 1 tablespoon. I took mine and mixed it with 1 cup of orange juice and it tasted fine. I have not tried it straight up to see if it is good or not.
We took another trip to Costco yesterday and I found yet another gem item. At our annual physical exams David and I were both told that our vitamin D levels were low. Apparently everyone who lives in the northwest U.S. suffers from it. I would imagine most people in sun deprived areas have trouble with D. I know that mine has been low for years. I am not a good vitamin taker (thankfully my other nutritional data is fine) but since David is not in tip top physical condition (I will inform you more about that when he finishes his battery of tests) I got us both a bottle of liquid D. The doctor told us to take 3000 units a day so all we have to do with this stuff is take 1 tablespoon. I took mine and mixed it with 1 cup of orange juice and it tasted fine. I have not tried it straight up to see if it is good or not.
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