Gah!!

I am here,

I have way too much to do as usual (are you sick of hearing about that yet?).  I must be just approaching the point where I stop writing in my journal .  I have always ended up with a string of Dear Diary-nothing much happened today or Dear diary-What the hell am I doing spending time thinking up what to write when I should be getting x,y,z and all the rest of those things done.  Eventually I always quit writing all together.  This blog..for some reason has outlived every single attempt I have ever made to chronicle anything in writing.  This blog has in words chronicled the single only time I have ever succeeded at losing weight.  and this blog has been a very positive thing.

so...of course I need to keep on doing it.  The problem is I cannot always think of anything new to say. Sure I can write down what I eat, fail to eat, or fail at eating.  I can write down lists of all of the crap I should get done or did get done.  I can write down what we do and where we go but...sometimes that seems sooooo boring.

Up to this point I have not worried about who follows me.  There are course many of you who I consider my peeps..my friends and greatest source of bandy support.  I am so grateful that I got to meet you in person and virtually and I would have it no other way.  On the other hand...do I really need this blog if I do not concern myself with who is reading it-hmmmm.

1.  My food has gone to hell in a hand basket.  I am back to my old litany whenever you cut something out all you want to do is eat it/have it..roll in it...swim in it.  Yeah well um I have done a bit of all of the above.  Screw the research.  I need to moderate and keep it slow and I will...I hope.

2.  I have decided I need a fill.  I tightened up this week--OMG  I have been looser than I think.  Why is it that I always seem to get myself in this place?

3.  Menopause--it is happening and FINALLY...the period stuff is on quick stop :) wahhhhhoooooooo.

4.  I have a crap-load of stuff to get done at the store...some of which is web-design stuff, stocking shelves, deciding what I need to make sure I have available for the Winter season, what kinds of kits to put together, making sure those kits are ready to go, get class samples ready, balance the books.

5.  I have stuff for my other tutoring/researchy jobs-reading two papers, writing up a course description i promised, reviewing an article for a journal.

6.  I have house-ee stuff-clean more than one floor of the house at a time, hang up pictures and get Grace's room in any kind of order (yes she is supposed to help but not very good at organizing herself). We want to have a party but every time I get one area picked up the filth busts out of a new one (you know like those closets that fall on your head every time someone opens the door).  My whole house is like one of those closets.

Holy crap--i just came in to check on this post and remembered I have another day off tomorrow :) yippeee..good food day..check.  no doctors appointment yet..but tomorrow perhaps.  Menopause..still a good check...work shmirk..tomorrow is my day off.  Ok..I will work on the tutoring researchy stuff...and maybe some of the cleaning. :)

nighty night.